Frankenstein ain’t got nothing on me.. I meant HIM . I swear that there is a monster that lives, breathes, and moves inside of me. When it’s hungry he forces me to feed him. When he is sick of people, he forces me to cut them off. When he is moody he forces me to let those that are around me know that I am not having a good day. When he is horny, he begs me to get sexual gratification. We he is mad, he forces me to think of words to destroy. When he is jealous, he forces me to seek ways to get revenge.. A real life MONSTER… inside of “little old ME “.. figure that ?

It is Marc Coley … yeah – the naked.me guy. I have been feeling that statement more and more as the days go on. I believe that God is defiantly doing something different inside of me. [not sure what it is] I feel that I’m being prepared for something that isn’t that glamorous but for something that will impact a world of people.

NAKED … so liberating .. so refreshing.  I spoke with a friend a few years ago about the subject of blackmail. Ya know .. blackmail .. when someone holds something over you in-order to get what they want from you … ok-ok you want a Webster meaning , aye?  Here it goes … to force or coerce into a particular action, statement, etc . So what happens is , as LONG as you keep the monster on the hush the enemy is able to Blackmail you . OK, you are reading like you are confused. Lemme break it down.

Say your Monster is the fact that you have sex outside your marriage. The enemy of course knows that… after all he is the one that tempts, persuades and leads us into traps. Any who, by you trying to hide “the monster” you have to live a double life.. because everyone knows you as a Christian and they CAN NOT find out your secret , Right? … Blackmail … wouldn’t it be liberating to get it off your chest and say what you struggle with so that your REAL brothers and sisters can help you and pray you through ? YEP.. but of course we are taught to hide and be secretive… but if you are reading this I believe that the Holy Spirit is speaking to you through these words. Be free …#fareal … be free…

Back to my Monster … yeah he’s still here. My grandma use to say “if ya feed em’ , they stick around “ … she was referring to the wild animals that use to make their way into our yard… but I’m referring to the struggles that stick around. Yep. I admit .. I’m not perfect … I forgot to send the memo to those that admire me. I forgot to post it on my Facebook status for those that say ” Coley is SOOOO anointed ” … yep.. that guy.. He has a monster. Growing bigger and stronger as the days go by. I attempt to ignore him … I try to pretend he’s not there. I say to myself, .. When I wake up he will be gone…. or maybe if I pray in tongues it will magically disappear … but with no luck… HE YET LIVES...!!  Oh!! I know … I will run to the alter and the man up there will lay hands on me and pour a bottle of olive oil on me and when I get home .. the Monster will be gone  … NOPE . Not that easy!

The Monster lives … The only one that can deliver me from this unforgiving attachment, is GOD. Knowing that… I have cried countless nights but he has not yet deliver … until then I’m processing …I believe this is the part that God is leading me to “The Process “. Monsters don’t appear overnight … and with that same logic, they don’t disappear overnight as well. I wasn’t aware of that. I was under the impression that when I came to Christ I became… ya know , PERFECT ! … Well sadly, I’m not .. I’m just like millions of people.. “I’m in the process”. Don’t get it twisted.. that doesn’t give me FREEDOM to do whatever and blame it on “the process” … but It gives me assurance that this MONSTER [ as nasty as he is ] will not be around forever….

I am finally [unleashed]
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